|David Delahoussaye's graphic of himself|
As I reflect upon my experiences while plagued with manic depression, I have mixed emotions. I can recall the agonizing mental chaos I experienced and the feelings of utter despair and worthlessness. I pray to God that I will never have to go through such misery again. However, during the short-lived intervals at the opposite peal of the mood swings, I can also recall the wonderful emotions of intense joy, complete freedom and self-confidence and anticipation with excitement. I clung desperately to these friendly sensations which I knew would soon be shattered by an inevitable downward crash. I remember not being able to sleep because of child-like excitement of anticipation of what the next day would bring.